Logan is sick…again.  He has ear infections in both years.  Not even a month ago, he had an ear infection in his left year.  The doctor told me that he may become a candidate for tubes.  My poor baby has already had one procedure done, I cannot imagine having to go through that again.  Even though the procedures are very small and fairly quick, it is hard to see him go through something like that.  He does not really know what is going on, but its still difficult for me.  I hope that he gets better soon and does not need tubes!

This semester is killing me!  I have been averaging about 5 or 6 hours a night.  I spend at least 5 hours doing homework every night and it never seems to stop.  It doesn’t help that Logan likes to stay very late.  I cannot wait for Christmas break, even though i will be working a lot.  I need the money sooo bad.  Christmas shopping is making me depressed because I have no money to spend on Logan.  :(

I cannot wait until this semester is over.  I have been so stressed with school and home life that I am going crazy!  There are so many more projects I have to do during Thanksgiving break that it won’t be much of a break.  I was supposed to take 19 hours next semester but my dad said that it was too expansive to now I have to drop down to 16 hours.  This upsets me because I get plenty of grants and scholarships, one extra credit hour should be nothing.  My dad pays for both of my brothers to attend school.  I will be able to work an extra shift at work though if I drop that class which will help me to pay for daycare.  I am so nervous about Logan starting daycare.  I am sure he will do just fine, and I know the people because I work there so I know he will be in good hands.  It is just the thought of sending my child to daycare.  I hope the rest of this semester goes by fast so I can make lots of money during Christmas break!

October 30th was my 21st birthday!  That night I went out to a bar with my boyfriend and a few of our friends and had a blast!  That group of people is so funny!    The next day I had dinner with my family.  My grandparents came over and my grandma made me the cutest card.  She taped 21 pennies onto the card and wrote a story on the inside of the card that only we would understand.  She is such a great grandma and person.  I love spending time with her!  The next weekend I went out for my birthday…again!  We started at Brothers, moved to Toro, and ended a J. Hall.  I got my boyfriend who claims he does not dance to dance!  It was a blast.  We took a taxi home and almost got killed!  I have only been in a taxi a couple of times, but I assumed that taxi drivers had to be good at driving.  This driver swerved, made illegal u-turns, and almost rear ended a couple cars.  To continue my birthday celebration, this weekend my boyfriend’s sister is having their family over for cake and ice cream!  I love when my birthday continues for multiple weeks :)

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Over the weekend, I went to Maryland with my mom and boyfriend for my cousin’s wedding.  It was a long drive on Friday that ended with the rehearsal dinner at my aunt and uncle’s house.  It was nice to see all of my family members again.  We do not really get together that much because we live in different states, so any occasion to get together is always fun.  I got to talk to my newest cousin-in-law Lisa whose wedding I missed.  Saturday, my mom went into D.C. with her brother while my boyfriend and I went on a ride to Chesapeake Bay.  I love D.C., but I have been there three times.  I was ready for something new, and I was not really feeling walking around all day.  The drive to Chesapeake Bay was only about a half hour from where we were staying.  We had to cross this HUGE bridge to get to the other side of the bay.  The bridge was the longest and tallest bridge I have ever seen.  The bay was very pretty and it was lined with gigantic houses.  That night was the big night!  My cousin married his finance Sarah at an outdoor ceremony in Sarah’s backyard.  It was different and there was nothing covering the grass, so my heels kept getting stuck!  We danced and talked all night at the reception.  I had a great time and I am so happy for my cousin and his new wife!

Wednesdays are always such long days for me.  I start at nine with clinicals, go straight to Okerman, back to language arts, then to this class.  It is such a long day and my lunch is a bag of skittles and a special k bar.  I never have any energy.  When I get out of this class I eat dinner with my family (not my parents) and then its straight to homework.  I spend about 1 hour with Logan total on Wednesdays.  It breaks my heart when I have to leave him and he does not cry or want to stay with me.  He is so used to me leaving him with a babysitter that I feel like he prefers it.  Thursdays are even worse because he is with his dad.  Fall break this year sucks because its only on a Friday.  I don’t have class on Fridays I work 8-6.  I need a real fall break.  I cannot wait until this semester is over and I have a whole month to spend with Logan.

I know I almost always post something about Logan, but he truly is my everything!  Lately I’ve been having trouble because he is not napping.  I am never home during the day so I cannot make sure he gets down for at least an hour.  I am also working with stubborn people.  My mom never listens to a word I say about how I want Logan raised.  She is constantly undermining my authority with Logan.  I need her to watch him because I cannot afford daycare or a babysitter every day I am at school or work.  I am also working with Logan’s dad, or trying to.  He has a hard time telling me if Logan ate lunch or not, so trying to talk to him about a nap schedule is practically impossible.  Whenever I try to bring something up about how we should parent Logan, he gets defensive like I am inferring he is a bad parent.  Logan needs to take naps for many reasons.  The main reason is it is the time he grows.  He also is so crabby and so tired between 6 and midnight when he goes to bed.  He gets so tired he doesn’t know what to do with himself.  He goes from wanting to eat, to spitting out his juice, to reading, to throwing himself on the floor, to wanting to eat again.  I just wish the people who help me with Logan would try to work better with me for Logan’s sake!

Over the weekend, I went with my mom, Logan, uncle, aunt, boyfriend, and boyfriend’s brother to tour the last of the LST ships from WWII.  It actually went to D-Day on Normandy Beach, and a crew still takes it out for about two months in the summer.  The ship is 99% original which is amazing since it was made in the 40’s.  My boyfriend, who is a plumber, pointed out that PVC pipe did not exist in the 40’s so that is at least part of the 1% that is not original.  I know I sound like a nerd, but I really enjoyed taking a tour of the ship.  They still had the big guns attached which could shoot around 4 miles away.  I cannot even imagine what these soldiers went through while aboard this war vessel.  The volunteers said that most of the captains of the ship during wartime were only in their mid-twenties.  That is only a few years older than me.  The ship was also in Greek possession as part of their navy for a while, so there is graffiti left behind from the soldiers.  My uncle was in the navy so he had some very interesting stories to tell about his time on a ship.  Logan loved being on the ship as well.  He kept shouting “boat” or “gun” or “water.”  The tour took around an hour and a half, so I was very worried about Logan cooperating for that long period of time.  He was very good, unlike some of the other children that were touring the ship with their families.  Since he was so good, he got a little sailor’s hat from the gift shop, but he refuses to wear it :(

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ALRIGHT… its only like the 5th week of the school and my stress levels are to the point where i feel like i am at the end of the year… tons of exams ill be on like my 4th exam tomorrow. I don’t like it at all.

i mean seriously I’m a full time student, full time job, and i am playing tennis.

I don’t know how much longer I can seriously handle anymore pressure. 

How do you all deal with your stress… especially you all taking your clinical this semester?

If I can, I try to take one night a week and do something small for myself or Logan such as painting my toenails or taking Logan to a park.

The coming week is going to be a crazy week for school.  I have my Ed Tech class facilitation and my philosophy presentation.  Besides those presentations I have more reading than I have time for and various other assignments.  It is so hard to keep up with everything.  I try to keep to do lists so I can see that I am getting my goals accomplished, but it is hard to keep myself focused at night after being in school all day.  I try to set aside one night a week that I do not do any homework to get myself refreshed, but I do not think that night is going to come this week.  I feel like I am sacrificing time with my son to get everything accomplished.  I hope he still knows how much I love him!